I am

I am the shot that bounces off the net

I take off on the word "set"

the firework that explodes a minute too late

the girl who ditches every date

beating myself up over the things that I do

when my name comes up, people say "who?"

I say a lot of things that I don't mean

the truth is never as pretty as it seems

a peacemaker is hated for never putting up a fight

being reserved begs the question if everything's alright

I am becoming the person I never wanted to be

the truth is never as pretty as it seems

when I catch an eye, I lead boys to the edge of a cliff

I push them off and blow them a kiss

I get scared when I am touched

broken promises, I still have clutched

I push away while begging to stay

I am not worth being part of your day

I get attached and then blame you

I hate myself and you will to

I hope that by repeating what I wish to be called

beautiful, strong, kind, flawed

that I will become what I wish to be true

I am not what you think, I will ruin you

I am the goalie who misses the ball

I am the one who softens the fall

I am the mistake that makes you lose

I am the silence that chokes the truth

the thunderstorm on a sunny day

the reason people lie anyway

I am the puzzle piece that doesn't fit

I am a wall crumbling bit by bit

I will let you walk over and kick me down

every day feels like I am going to drown

I live under the weight of all of my wrongs

I try to find meaning in every song

I believe in happy endings that never come

I don't know where I'm going or where I'm from

I am sick of telling myself it will all be fine

I am tired of regretting that you aren't mine

I wanted a rainbow and willing to sit through the rain

I was left with a mountain of depression and pain

I am the giver who never receives

this party isn't fun, I want to leave

I am the shot that bounces off the net

and every once in a while

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